Right all along

In the beginning I was scared.
In the beginning I was sad.
In the beginning I was broken.
In the beginning I was blind.

As the ground crumbled beneath me,
As the sun was no longer shinning,
As the flowers were no longer blooming,
As my hard desperately reached for yours,
I collapsed.

Then once you came to see me,
Then once I felt your love surround me,
Then once I knew you were with me,
Then once I woke up, I was dreaming.

Strategically you placed me somewhere.
Little by little,
You orchestrated quite a plan.
Little by little,
I got up from the ground.
Little by little,
Your voice I have found.

I used to believe instincts came from within,
How naïve.
I used to believe I was lucky,
How naïve.
Luck is not guiding my way,
How naïve.
Your love is, and it’s here to stay.

What you are to me, Mother,
No one will ever be.
What you felt for me, Mother,
No one will ever feel.
How you saw me, Mother,
No one will ever see.

You taught me to always love.
You taught me to let hate go.
You taught me to be strong.
And again you’re teaching me,
I’m not wrong.

I’m right to stand up for myself.
I’m right to love unconditionally,
Even if it doesn’t please everyone else.
I’m right to forgive,
I’m right to believe you are right here.

I'm not alone

Being alone in the car,

That's when I miss you the most.

I go from looking at the road,to seeing all in a big blur.
Only a line of shiny lightsEverything else becomes unimportant now.I turn off the music,it no longer makes sense to sing so loud.
The speed I so carefully once controlled doesn't matter at all,The car practically drives itself,or maybe you took over so I can let go,And I let go.
I let all the feelings flow,Flowing, spilling out violently from by body.My heart, it pours pain, constraintFor trying to keep it together all along.
I say all the words that are holding me back,I cry all the tears that have been tormenting my sleep,All the whimpers of pain I don't want to keep.
I miss someone to hold me tight,Someone to tell me it will all be alright.Someone who thinks of you as a precious treasure.The thought of never having that feeling scares me,Send me to the ledger.
But an interesting thing happened just then,I cried out your name and the tear suddenly stoppedMy heart felt something.My breath slowed down,I pulled my hair back,My heart felt a tingle,My hands reach for yours,but your hand isn't there,But your love and warmth are there for sure.
I argue with myselfI reason with myselfI calm myself
I'm not alone,the night goes on,I get home,I'm alone.
The morning came and it brought me a surprise,I woke up happy today, contentNo obstacles would be on my way today,Any problem that started would solve itself outI wonder why, even though I already know.
I smile,I thank you,I blow you a kiss.
It's amazing to me,How lucky I must be.A mom like you is one of a kind,You somehow took my pain away,Love and hapiness fill my mind.